Hello, what's up, internet?

This is going to be my first post back from my summer back-home/Indonesia trip 2015.

without any further a do, we should really get it started.

Regrets.

The past month, until very recently actually, I have been experiencing a lot of regrets. Yeah, I really regret a lot. One thing for sure, there's a saying that we often regret the things that we didn't do than the things we do. and I'm not saying I completely agree with that, but neither do I think that's incorrect. Things happens for a reason. maybe things don't happen for a reason too.

Regrets on the things I do.

this happens often times and it's a very huge problem for me on myself. As a teenager who really enjoys gathering experiences to become a better person who's more mature with a better character, I force myself to always believe that every thing that I experience is a very useful lesson. and life itself is about learning. One cannot refuse to stop learning, it's already a fact we can't deny. You observe things and you learn from it, for yourself. Life is learn. Learn to be ____, you fill in the blanks. I'm sure we always come up with a lot of things, and that's just the beauty of a human brain. and anyway, about regretting the things I do, it's kind of easier for me to let it go. because things happen and there's nothing you can do about it. Present always become past. What's done is done, but what's next is to not repeat what you're going to regret again. Tenses (as a noun, gramatically) forms a circle that doesn't stop.

Regrets.

on the things I didn't do.

let's just say, people make mistakes. and not doing mostly good things is one most of them. What is your purpose in life, if you only waste time to do nothing? The glory of the Lord needs to be spread for the people to know and the church of God to be build! (omg, here it goes.) Haha, what I'm saying is, life is not about you and how you live it for yourself. It's about how you live it, for the goodness of the Lord, in which it goes perpendicular (it's a term for 90°ness or visually like an upside down T. do you see it?). By that, I mean you live for God but practically is how it affects to other people too! Life only ends with death, and as a believer, there's going to be an afterlife. And you better get your stuff together for afterlife than something only temporary. Gather those fruits, be a blessing. this is a very well note-to-self.

there's another one,

regrets on the things I planned to do but didn't do.

"the only thing in life that is worth fighting for is happiness." this is of the many quotes that I hold on to. You only live on earth once. Why not make this opportunity worth while it last? Happy can be earned from doing fun stuff. Fun is relative, people have each their own "fun" and "happiness". The Authority hopes us to have "fun" through some very Christ-activity. But during our time learning (living), I think it's fair enough if we enjoy it as we can, we play it in our own rules for a short while, to feel and to learn on our own way. When actually Someone is under control. Now the main reason I'm writing about regrets at all is because of this worst stage of regrets. The planned but didn't do. This post was supposed to be a full-rage-filled story, in which I actually thought better to make a vlog out of it. Or then through literature express an unspoken rage behind a story. It turned out like this, see? Planned but didn't do. I don't regret it this time though.

My own happiness, this is concerning me back from my vacation. And this time, this regret is NOT DOING A BACK TO SCHOOL SHOPPING SPREE WHILST IN JAKARTA. Damn, it hurts worse when I keep thinking and talking about it. Stationary hauls are the worst(best) :(

anyway,

this is what happens when I pause during writing. I just stop a few minutes after continuing it. okay I'm done. Hope you enjoy this uncategorized post.

Thankyou for reading..

I'll be writing and posting cute stuff with pictures more. Hooray.

(hopefully in Indonesian and German, but mostly Indonesian. since my readers grow there, YAELAH.)