Girls will be girls
3:57:00 AMOKAY SO WHUT UP PEOPLE
It's gonna be an english post today because why? BECAUSE ITS FREAKIN WEEKEND. That's right, no german speaking zone on weekend. Yup. Amen.
Just for a little bit of prologue, I am 16y.o., I've only had one real boyfriend for a year long, and of course, I had a LOT of crushes before, during, and obviously after our relationship that ended fairly one and a half year ago.
The story is taking place in my current school.
Oh man, another day, another german speaking period, another people I don't know, another everything I can winge about. But thank God, it's Friday! *rolls Katy Perry song* Can't believe I have to suffer taking stairs again, having my class on the 2nd floor..again. It's bloody sunny, all the regrets of not wearing a hoe outfit is happening right now. I hate recesses, but I hate classes too, well, not all of them at least. So that's not that bad. I just don't like "not my kind of" people in general. This will end soon enough, ther. Keep that in mind. Well, reality sucks innit? Gotta live the life you have. hashtag sigh.
I don't have a lot of friends, expectedly no boys either, of course. So there I was YOLOing my way from class, stepping down the stairs. Until...
Oh his eyes his eyes,
make the stars look like they're not shining
His hair his hair
stands perfectly without him trying
he's so beautiful
and I tell that to myself everyday
How is that even possible? Among all "bule"s I see at school, not even putting my attention on our blue eyed tan half-american Lukas... this guy walking down the stairs is an ANGEL. Black hair that places his head perfectly, not to high above him, not to low upon his forehead, those black caterpillar eyebrows, the next thing you'll see in a bule, that pointed nose (I've seen bigger, but this one still suits his face shape), and also those amazing lips. God, I'm a sucker for thick-moist-pink lips, that falls out from his cheek skins a little bit, yet still hides his teeth decently. As we go further, that jaw line of his, on his white skin, he could be more brown though, no, he's perfect just the way he is. His height, fulfil the stakes of hot guys, I can say around 1,75-ish meter. His figure you ask? I knew you've actually already guessed it: biceps, not that tight, but he trains to keep it that way. Have you seen the veins popping out on his arm-skin? God. Help. How I wish to be able to hold his hands, wrap his arms around me. I mean, why wouldn't any girl ever want to? Carrying his longboard next to his legs which is wrapped with jeans, not too baggy, not too tight, not "hanging" that much. The next thing I can fall in love with, how he dresses. It is clear to see he's from a sufficient family. How he also slides his Silver iPhone 5s into his jeans pocket. The Polo T-shirt he's wearing isn't so short that one may see if he has abs or not, but POLO SHIRTS?
Falling in love with one's physical appearance is not against the law nor even against the unwritten rules in society. But of course, how can I know that I'm actually falling for the guy, and not just for his looks? "Manners maketh man." I needed to know his personality and character. Nothing serious about it, but if your beautiful appearance doesn't mirror your acts, I'm sorry but you are a disrespectful, dumb person. I mean, your charm is gone if I know you're a jerk. Commonly, jerks always look that awesome, so be very careful.
Being in the same "floor", I was very confident that he's suppose to be around my age. He often talks with my year-classmates too. Must be in the 9th, like me. (omg we have something in common) Then shortly, finding myself alone approaching another classroom, I also came to find out that WE HAVE CLASS TOGETHER. And you know what class that is? hm? RELIGION. Yes, Jesus blessed His genes. He stood there with some friends talking very usually. Trust me, I am always the one who wants to get to class after the recess bell as soon as possible.. AND HE IS EARLIER THAN ME. His voice is deep with some peachy high tones too. He's chatty, but not the type of guy who's worst than most girls, I mean, he doesn't blab about unimportant things exaggeratedly. I think he once talked to me for the first time, maybe it went something like this
"are you new here?"
"yes"
"oh, i'm jonathan"
"hi!"
*boy nods, smiles* *boy leaves*
indahnya dirimu, ingin selalu bersamamu disetiap waktu...
Yes, he stood half a meter length from me. God, seing him upclose is amazing. I knew his friendly. AAAAAHH! God, I wish I have the chance to get to know him better. Class is starting and I can't bother to stop taking a peek of him. He's that type of student who's sits in the front and doesn't really chat much in class, nevertheless "playing with himself" and by that I meant doing stuff to execute boredom but not actually disturbing the others. He's quite active, I'm so happy to see that. He has manners when talking to the teacher doesn't hate school that much and still respects his and the other mates' absence. Therefore, the first stage of having a crush a.k.a "The Discovery" is done. (cr: iisuperwomanii on YouTube)
I sort of didn't want the class to end, but all is well it ends well, we'll meet again, Boy.
(then I see him in recess again on the school yard, talking and having fun with his sociable friends from class, which some of them I know aswell. The cool kids. I don't get why they took a spot where me and my only two friends often sit at. We're so close, I'm so happy to be able to see him again, hear his voice talking about normal stuff even! Ah senpai.)
Since we only have class together on Fridays, here comes another story.
New subject in Religion today, death. As a brief introduction to what we're going to talk about until summer, Mrs. Haneman wanted us to form a circle. And no, me and Jonathan didn't sit next to each other. But I did sit next to a girl, who's bloody hell hot, and as I was also like Jonathan (who's basically always active in Religion class, definitely turn on for me tho!) active about the new theme series "death" (since the last theme about Judaism didn't interest me that much), so did she. No, I didn't not-like her. She's nice. It's just that, she's so perfect with that booty and adidas merch all over her body bothers me alot. Oh, and also how the "Cross" necklace hanging between her boobs bothers me too. But she has a good personality, I mean, bitchy on the outside but beautiful on the inside. AND WE CONTINUE. Anyhow, I noticed that Jonathan agrees on some of my statements asked in the circle. SENPAI NOTICED ME. But since we're not that close and we barely know each other, the fact that this girl next to me was also active, Jonathan came up to her. Okay I'm just going to stop there.
She wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
she's cheers captain
and I'm on the...very back bench.
Oh well, we were visiting a cemetery, they looked great together, even when he's just talking about religion, maybe. I don't know. Although, just to know he's a believer (who actually have faith among death), makes my heart glow even more. But trust me though, I am definitely accepting the fact that he's too good for a poor schlub like me. :))
I keep seing him more often nowadays, how did I not found him out sooner? He was hot when I first laid eyes on him and he's even more hot. We just had Religion again today, and you know what? Beating the heat wave at school, he was wearing a galaxy-patterned boy-tanktop with an Avengers logo. GOD. I died seing him today with that outfit, showing his biceps, his chest form, shorts, leg hair that isn't so hideous, and pair of Nike. He came up to my seat row chilling with my two religion classmates, Vanessa and Izzy. They were laughing at Jonathan's foolishness of acting like a ladyboy with Izzy's girly accessories. The scene was just watching some retro movie about afterlife experience and its burning hot inside the room, everyone was sweating. I was very calm, and one time, our eyes met too. We both looked away after a second.
So clear to me now, can't explain what you're doing to me
I'd leave but I don't know how
It's gonna take some time, but I'll figure it out
...
Cause I'm in love with the thought of you
With the thought of you, with the thought of you
I'm in love with the thought of you
Not the things you do (well, that too), but the thought of you
I sort of didn't want the class to end, but all is well it ends well, we'll meet again, Boy.
(then I see him in recess again on the school yard, talking and having fun with his sociable friends from class, which some of them I know aswell. The cool kids. I don't get why they took a spot where me and my only two friends often sit at. We're so close, I'm so happy to be able to see him again, hear his voice talking about normal stuff even! Ah senpai.)
Since we only have class together on Fridays, here comes another story.
New subject in Religion today, death. As a brief introduction to what we're going to talk about until summer, Mrs. Haneman wanted us to form a circle. And no, me and Jonathan didn't sit next to each other. But I did sit next to a girl, who's bloody hell hot, and as I was also like Jonathan (who's basically always active in Religion class, definitely turn on for me tho!) active about the new theme series "death" (since the last theme about Judaism didn't interest me that much), so did she. No, I didn't not-like her. She's nice. It's just that, she's so perfect with that booty and adidas merch all over her body bothers me alot. Oh, and also how the "Cross" necklace hanging between her boobs bothers me too. But she has a good personality, I mean, bitchy on the outside but beautiful on the inside. AND WE CONTINUE. Anyhow, I noticed that Jonathan agrees on some of my statements asked in the circle. SENPAI NOTICED ME. But since we're not that close and we barely know each other, the fact that this girl next to me was also active, Jonathan came up to her. Okay I'm just going to stop there.
She wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
she's cheers captain
and I'm on the...very back bench.
Oh well, we were visiting a cemetery, they looked great together, even when he's just talking about religion, maybe. I don't know. Although, just to know he's a believer (who actually have faith among death), makes my heart glow even more. But trust me though, I am definitely accepting the fact that he's too good for a poor schlub like me. :))
I keep seing him more often nowadays, how did I not found him out sooner? He was hot when I first laid eyes on him and he's even more hot. We just had Religion again today, and you know what? Beating the heat wave at school, he was wearing a galaxy-patterned boy-tanktop with an Avengers logo. GOD. I died seing him today with that outfit, showing his biceps, his chest form, shorts, leg hair that isn't so hideous, and pair of Nike. He came up to my seat row chilling with my two religion classmates, Vanessa and Izzy. They were laughing at Jonathan's foolishness of acting like a ladyboy with Izzy's girly accessories. The scene was just watching some retro movie about afterlife experience and its burning hot inside the room, everyone was sweating. I was very calm, and one time, our eyes met too. We both looked away after a second.
So clear to me now, can't explain what you're doing to me
I'd leave but I don't know how
It's gonna take some time, but I'll figure it out
...
Cause I'm in love with the thought of you
With the thought of you, with the thought of you
I'm in love with the thought of you
Not the things you do (well, that too), but the thought of you
Side notes:
- Bule is an Indonesian term for "foreigners", non-asian. and often referred Caucasians (white-guy)
- all the italic written quotes are song lyrics from different musicians. the indonesian one as well.
- "Manners maketh man" is a movie (Kingsman: The Secret Service) quote / reference.
- conversation(s) happened in german, ofcourse I translated it here
- names used are real.
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